*Gin is feeling*
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Friday, August 15, 2003
Cold day ...
Today mich nv go to school. Today is simple, nothing great happened.I ate prawn noodle for lunch..too long nv eat lunch, feel that it taste great.
I reach home.. packed my files n saw that practical sheet on database management, reminds me of wad happen yesterday.
Actually i feel quite pissed off with this girl for quite long, about her working attitude. As a friend, she is a normal simple girl like anyone of us out there. But when come to serious stuff, i can't feel her participation, her effort. Sometimes, i feel that its fine, as long as she doesnt bother me.
But yesterday, something happen. Although its a small thing that i should make a great fuss about, but i still feel that i should find a day to clarify things clearly. I really find it ok for people to ask me qns of how to do when they are stuck.. ok im not pro .. i am not trying to sound cocky or wad. but if u duplicated someones work without knowing the actual meaning actual understanding, the loser in the end is not me, is the person themselves. The feeling of hard work seems so easy for u by just duplicating, making the originator feels that wow u can get off so easy, quick and spree. My efforts seems to have been taken advantage of. Why can u sit there and relax when i have to put in so so much effort??? Dun understand y.
That tutor says that the three copies of mine, mich and jean were "duplicated".. mich and i went up for clarification about our work and tutor is understanding enuf to find out that our work aint exactly duplicated. only jean's copy seems duplicated exactly from mich's. Well, the problem is here .. clear.. cos on the day of practical, i saw mich actually did her work by asking alot of qns, even the tutor knows. I did heard michy complain about jean copied her work without understanding.. and jean actually can say tat its her OWN WORK.. some syntax error made by mich she also have.. hai~ The tutor ask the two of us to tell jean to look for her if she wants to get back her marks provided she can prove that she nv copied. Well , i doubt she went. Abit sick about such personality. On the test yesterday, actually i never intend to sit beside her, cos i know surely she will copy my ans.. But she came to sit beside me.. I know i very mean as i actually used my calculator to block my answers and pretend to use them when i found her turning to look at my paper. I duno why lar.. but i still feel ok to lend mich copy but i really dun wan her to copy my ans as she is like every qns wan to copy like tat. She is like no effort at all.. that makes me FEEL SICK about her. i did hint her about her copying event in the lift, she did admit but she end it with a grin. So not serious, another plus to the sickness. Whats even more sickening is that i am in the same group with her. WHY???????????????????
hai~ my class is full of selfish people, maybe it is part of human nature. They want to stick to the group of friends and dun wan to split where by the clicks get into the same group always.. Why they dun wan to split and have a change of group? Is it because they know that if they change, they will probably get some lazy people ? But it is very unfair that they always have the best in their group. I am selfish too, if i were able to choose, i also want people that actually do their work, so i dun have to cover so much of their stuff.
So many of nice people i've seen here seemed so fake now
Why are they wrapped with mask that is used for advantage keeping
Sucking up to everyone, just incase they need them in the future.
Making the smart, the king,
Even thou they dun like their character.
Letting them do whatever they demand, so that u will get what you want in future.
So true yet so fake.
Whats true anyway?
Is this part and parcel of what we called life?
Is life about this so that we can survive?
Why?
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